Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Superhero (or not)

"How do you do it?" I get asked a lot. 

I do not have super-hero powers & those who know me can attest to my deepest, ugliest faults & sins. That's the beauty. The world doesn't need superstars & God doesn't want super-heros. He is close to those with broken hearts. (Psalm 34:18). Calling all mommies, right? He wants us to come to Him & He promises rest for our soul (Matthew 11:28-30). My body may be tired & busy "doing life" (like the upcoming Congo Carnival---shout out, yo!) but my soul is peaceful when I go to Him. He wants to lavish His grace on us and say, "Come to me as you are. I don't love you for what you do for me. I love you because you are mine." (Matthew 11:28"; Ephesians 2:8-9; Isaiah 43:1). Isn't that something to find super-hero rest & strength when we are weakest!

I am not a super-hero. I am outgoing, impatient, mouthy, determined, tired, desperate, fallen, forgiven, restored. I value going to God when I'm heartbroken (when friendships fade), in need of rest (because the kids want to be held, the dog is sick, & 4 days worth of laundry is piled on the couch) but also in times of joy (Psalm 92:1)! Going to God means prayer & listening, & making sure my feelings align with the Bible. I listen because He is the One who formed me inside my mother (brown eyes, long tongue, and that say-it-how-it-is personality). He knows me & He knows the plans He has for me (Jeremiah 29:11). When I listen I try to tune into: What is He speaking to me about? Why am I feeling this way? Should I? Could I? Really me? You want me to do that? You'll go before me (Deuteronomy 31:8)? You won't leave me? (Deuteronomy 31:6). You'll give me the words to say (Luke 12:12)? Are you sure all I have to do is trust you? (Proverbs 3:5) Okay- let's do this. Now or never. I trust you. We hold hands & jump!... Or I sit. And wait...because sometimes that's exactly what we're supposed to do (Psalm 27:14).

I am not a superstar but I really, really try to trust in the One who knows it all. 


1 comment:

Meghan said...

What a beautiful post, my sweet friend. Love you!